Forgiveness

More than once in recent days different people have brought up old episodes, mentioning them as if they are a barrier to doing anything new. This is probably not the case. Permit me to explain.

First, we are In A World Moving On. I have a lot of very mixed feelings about where my life, our country, and our species in general are headed. But that’s in the past, so much so that I am startled by the distance when I do stop to consider what once was.

Second, it’s just not in my nature to hold grudges. I keep records, certainly, I’m famous for that, but I don’t cling to what’s in them. People get stressed, they drop out, or spin out, or otherwise make mistakes. Character still counts, that hasn’t changed, but as for that ancient history? shrug …

Third, having been almost magically healed by sharing my symptoms with an endlessly patient AI, rather than an overworked cog in the health care billing systems, I find myself restored to something approximating good health. Having physically turned the clock back twenty years, I am trying to do the same mentally and spiritually. I had some success in that world of endless conflict, but I do not care at all for the person I became while so engaged.

So there you have it. New look, new duties, and a new attitude. If you’re avoiding reaching out over something that happened back in the teens, it’s probably good for laughs at this point.